The Fool ~ Begin Again

Happy Spring Equinox, loves! I hope you had a blessed day full of balanced & cleansing energy.

Recently, I have been called to deepen my studies of the Tarot. I have been blessed with many new clients over the last few months and through that abundance, I have been drawn to dive deeper. Part of my studying will be to post about each card & develop the Tarot portion of my blog. I began last year with a couple cards I was working with heavily at the launch of The Wanderess Within, which you can find here. You can also contact me through that page for readings!

I decided to begin again with our dear friend ~ The Fool.

The Cards

If you’ve been following along with my blog or Instagram page, you know I work very closely with The Wild Unknown deck by Kim Krans. I still hold a very personal & powerful relationship with these cards. They continue to bring me peace, insight & strength in life’s tougher, yet magical, moments.

The Fool is Card Zero. The first card of the Major Arcana beginning the journey through the Tarot. For those unfamiliar with Tarot, there are seventy-eight cards in a traditional tarot deck. Twenty-two of those cards are called the Major Arcana (the deck’s trump cards). “Arcana” means secrets or mysteries. The Major Arcana are powerful and each one represents an archetype of the human psyche. These cards are the energies we all hold within ourselves.

The Major Arcana cards also tell a story through those human archetypes.
The keywords I associate with The Fool are; fearlessness, innocence and potential. The Fool represents the beginning of the story, the “Once upon a time,” the introduction to the deepest parts of ourselves. In order to reach those deepest parts, we have to start somewhere. The Fool asks us to put our fears aside & start now.

The Meaning

There is a sweet innocence to The Fool. An innocent energy that still has the excited eagerness to learn, explore, and begin. Blinded by excitement in the face of the unknown, The Fool is ready to take the leap that many of us are scared to take. We can see our little bird friend stretching out their foot in preparation to take it’s first flight. They are surrounded by beautiful blossoms ~ a sign of spring & new life.

When The Fool shows up in a reading, it’s telling you to begin, or, begin again. Take a step off the branch that’s been supporting you & dive into the unknown. As scary as that may seem, The Fool is telling you you’re ready.

The Fool is a reminder that we are constantly beginning. Whether that means beginning a new endeavor, like a job or degree, or starting a new relationship, with a partner or even with yourself. Beginning looks & feels different for everyone. The Fool reminds us that we have the power within us to start fresh in all aspects of our lives.

Unless you remain stuck on the branch. Unless you remain in your comfort zone.

The Fool in Me

I was stuck on the branch for a long time. I was comfortable in my distractions. Distractions from my work, my practice, my self. I allowed myself to be blinded by pain & got stuck in a space that felt safe & familiar. But “safe” does not mean positive. It does not mean growth. It certainly does not mean fearless.

“Growth is only available outside your comfort zone.” This is an idea that I find so overplayed and yet, so important. While I understand the sentiment (and it truly is the mantra of The Fool), the movement from being comfortable into a place of growth is so intimidating and I think that fact gets overlooked when we tell others to just go out & do the thing.

What if the thing we’re meant to do seems impossible & out of reach? What if we are stopped by crippling anxiety or depression? What if we have financial hurdles standing in our way? I believe the answer lies in being aware of our potential & trying to live it fully every day.

While I was studying this card & moving through my own space of comfort to one of growth, I asked myself, “How does The Fool overcome its fear?” And the answer is, at least for me, The Fool doesn’t hold fear to begin with. It does not yet know the disappointment or heartache that can come from beginning again & stepping off the branch. The Fool only sees the potential & takes the leap into flight.

So, I encourage you to take the leap this season. Spring is such an abundant time. We are surrounded by new life & fresh energy. Allow The Fool’s energy to fill your soul and push you off the branch you’ve been resting comfortably on this winter.

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With love ~ zz

The Final Lessons: A Story of Becoming

Nothing is ever final though, is it? These lessons are far reaching, all encompassing, and continuous. We are always learning, always growing, and I find a lot of comfort in that.

Two years ago, I started the journey of my becoming. I wrote on my Instagram, “currently experiencing a revolution.” And, wow, was I ever. I had no idea of the experiences coming my way. I had just purchased a one-way ticket to Ireland for that coming summer. I was riding an existential high that I have yet to recreate. But, it will come.

During that trip to Ireland, this list of 25 Lessons came to fruition. My ideas and the courage to start this blog came to fruition. The desire to continue the creative life I had left long ago, returned. I was becoming.

Becoming what? You may ask. Becoming who I was meant to be. Becoming my most authentic self. Becoming a witch. Becoming me.

The Final Five

I had a much different idea planned for this “final” portion of the 25 Lessons series. I had some arbitrary, relatable ideas drafted. But, I decided instead to use the five lessons I wrote down surrounding that solo trip across the ocean. They are just as true as they were two years ago. And, they will always be a reminder of the growth experienced through the fearless abandon I had in my twenty-fifth year.

However, because of the challenges I also experienced during that summer, I disconnected the important lessons I learned in that time. (Summer can be rough for some of us, remember?) But, I have finally accepted that even though they happened at the same time, they are two separate experiences. And, these lessons stand on their own. Just as I do.

21. Take the Road Not Taken

As Robert Frost famously wrote, 

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

The Road Not Taken: A Selection of Robert Frost’s Poems

As an English Lit major, I’ve heard this quote many times in my life. I love a good cliché. But, it wasn’t until I decided to leave my tour bus & hike the side of the Cliffs of Moher, solo, just me & the mist from the ocean, that it really resonated with me. Always take the road less traveled by. Sure, it takes courage to walk your own path. But, the courage grants you the sights that others won’t get the chance to witness.

On the other side, or at the end of the path, you will find solace & direction. Direction into yourself. Far away from the voices of the mass crowds. You will see things that others don’t; flocks of birds diving from the side of a 700 foot cliff, or puffins quietly nesting on the edge of an island, or an ice cream shop on a hot, sunny day with no queue.

Maybe you will meet someone on this path. Someone that will change your life.

Maybe that person will be you.

22. Smile!

A simple, genuine smile will go a long way. I have learned that people are inherently attracted to positivity. Good vibes bring good vibes, and all that. Good vibes also bring gifts. Gifts of abundance & gratitude, of magic, of shelter, of good food & good weed, and of new, lasting connections.

While travelling alone, I found that when others see you smiling, they are more inclined to smile too. They can’t help it, really. With that smile comes a helping hand in the form of directions to the next open hostel or an invite to the magical (and cost-free) music festival.

We can’t predict how someone is going to react to us. Especially when we are a stranger on the street in an unknown city. But, we can at least try to send positivity with a welcoming smile, in hopes they will send that positivity back to us. Couldn’t hurt, right?

Bonus: We become happier when we smile too!

23. Spend the money.

I should preface this lesson with the fact that I am not financially savvy by any means. Perhaps one day I will learn how to file my taxes, or find out what the benefits of an RRSP are, but, today is not that day.

What I am telling you with this lesson is that, sometimes, spending the extra money is worth it. I’m not rolling in cash because I live by the belief that money is meant to be spent. I’m currently doing the work to uncover where that belief stems from & what I can do about changing it, but that’s for a later blog post.

We are only here on this earth for a short time. So, why not live while we can? And, to me, that means a last-minute change of destination or, on a smaller scale, a side of chips with your beer at the pub.

If money is available to you, if you are bound to make more of it in the future, spend it with purpose, and without guilt!

24. Take the risk.

I write a lot about courage & bravery in these posts. The courage to be yourself, to live authentically, to say “no,” to buy the flight, to take the risk!

Amongst travelers, you hear the words, “I’m just going to find myself,” a lot. Even if you’re not going to “find yourself,” people will assume that’s what you’re doing out in the world anyway. What else would we be doing, buying a one-way ticket, or making a drastic move to a foreign country, if not to find out who we truly are?

We’ve created this assumption because on the other side of fear, we do find ourselves. Through being courageous & taking risks, we explore facets of our being that we would have never discovered if we hadn’t stepped out the door into the great unknown. And, yes, discovering those things is really scary! But, regardless of what happens after you take that step, you will have learned the lesson that risk was meant to teach you. And be that much better, and wiser, from it.

25. There are bigger things meant for you.

When we remain in our comfort zone, whether that be our hometown, a cushy job, or a toxic relationship (yes, those can be a space of comfort, too), we remain small. When we remain small, our energy remains stagnant. There is no space for us to move, and grow, and expand. Let me tell you; moving & growing & expanding feels so damn good. It feels like freedom. And power. And peace.

Travelers find this freedom with haste. Or, they do if they’re doing it right. Those wandering the world have the freedom to choose their next destination, “Valencia or Madrid?” and therefore, their next adventure. Freedom, and the feeling of “bigger,” quickly moves into other aspects of our lives as well. We return home and quit the soul-sucking desk job. Drop the deadbeat boyfriend. Let go of limiting beliefs. We do these things because we know now that there is a bigger world “out there” that has space for us & all of our dreams.

While I was checking in to my last hostel in Dublin, the man behind the counter tried to read my name out loud (a lot of people try this & fail). But, this guy knew his Polish pronunciation! He told me, in a very serious Irish accent, “With a name like that, you must be destined to do something grand. Something that’s going to change the world.” What a thing to say to a girl! I was at a loss for words as he handed my passport back to me. And I might have replied with a humble “thank you,” but I can’t be sure. However, I will always remember the feeling his words gave me. And I remind myself of them when I lose motivation to create, or the desire to love, or just to live.

Two years ago, under the full moon lunar eclipse, I wrote to myself, “I am so much more than I ever thought possible.”

Ah, Yes, the Conclusion

Well, my loves, I hope you’ve enjoyed this series of lessons from my, now twenty-seven, years of life on this wonderful earth. I’ve learned a lot through writing these posts as well, about myself, about the collective, about how hard it is to keep up with a blog! And, just like me, this space is becoming something I never thought it could be.

I would love to hear what you’ve thought after reading through these pages. What did you learn? What did you enjoy? What was a challenge to read?

To connect is one of my favourite activities. So, please let me know in the comments how it all has made you feel. Or, send me a little love note on the contact page.

There is so much more to come from The Wanderess Within! She is ready to become something bigger, too.

Like I told myself in the pages of my journal at the end of that summer, “Take a deep breath, the best is yet to come.”

With love ~ zz