Who is the Wanderess? A question much like; “what can you tell us about yourself?” One of my least favourite questions to answer, yet the most honest & telling.
I hope the following sheds a light on who I am, where I’ve been & what makes my heart happy. Enjoy, my lovelies!
Above & before all, I am a writer. I started this blog as a way of getting my words, wild thoughts & witchy intentions out into the world. My words are trapped in the many notebooks scattering my apartment floor. The wild thoughts have been bouncing around in my brain for too long. My intentions are waiting impatiently to have the world read, hear and understand them.
I’ve been writing pretty much since I learned the skill in the first grade. I don’t remember a time when I wasn’t writing. I’ve filled countless journals (a practice my darling mother introduced me to) but I have never shared my writing with anyone outside my circle. So, consider yourself lucky.
For a long time, I was under the impression that everyone kept a journal, wrote their feelings down, reflected on what happened in a day. I soon realized, while not alone in my writing practice, journal-keeping & creative writing wasn’t a popular pastime. I was a quiet kid growing up (if you know me, you might find that hard to believe) & I had a difficult time talking about what was going on in my head. As an experienced adult, I know that same struggle with communication I once had is very common. But, once I learned how to express myself (and I mean really express myself, my authentic self) I was so much happier. Not only happy, but relieved. I was so relieved to have an outlet that allowed honesty with myself, those around me, & the world.
I have lived on the beaches in Spain, worked in the mountains of northern Italy, and hung off the edge of the world in Ireland. My heart is always yearning for new scenery & a new adventure. But, right now, my heart is yearning for something else – to be heard. So, thank you for listening.
It was travel that truly inspired me to write this blog. I’ve written pages upon pages about the experiences I have had & shared amongst my closest & dearest friends in places all over the world. Whether it was good, bad or down right ugly, it made it on the page & will one day make it here! I have written in the middle of lush forests, on white, sandy beaches, on the top of seven-hundred foot cliffs, and in train stations, parks, bars, & cafes all over Europe. The constant change of scenery that travel allows will always inspire me. There is nothing quite like waking up in an unknown city & venturing out to see what it has to offer you.
Travel is humbling, gratifying, frightening, and always inspiring. I owe it to my wandering heart & supportive friends & family for pushing me out into the world. For, if not for them, I would still be caught up in who I used to be, not living an authentic life, never having crossed an ocean, and kicking myself for it every chance I got.
This summer, a man behind a hostel desk told me, “With a name like yours, you must be destined for something great. Something that’s going to change the world.” Wow. How does one respond to that? Obviously flattered, I took his words & thought hard about what I could do to change the world around me, even just a little bit. I still don’t have a concrete answer. But, maybe this is the start of that journey. Maybe this will be nothing but a diary. Either way, this blog, this space, was created to share the stories trying so desperately to get out there. Wherever “there” is.
I invite you all on this journey of discovery with me!
Let’s set the records straight. I didn’t just decide one day that I was a witch. There was no “Ah-ha” Oprah moment where I told myself, “Girl, you’re a witch now.” It was more of a gradual realization that I already was one & that the beliefs I had were shared amongst other women around me. It also helped that the universe started inserting witchy, intuitive experiences into my life. The universe will do that to you.
I consider myself a spiritual person. I believe that everything happens to us for a reason. Sometimes that reason is a blessing, sometimes a lesson, sometimes both! I believe we are all connected to each other & Mama Nature. I believe that the energy we put out into the world comes back to us; good & bad. I believe there are tools like tarot, crystals, and astrology to aid in the realization of the energy we all share. I use these tools intuitively & intentionally for guidance, self-reflection, and growth. They help me focus on what is important & true in my life as well as to understand the world around me. My practice has not only aided in my personal growth but the growth of the ones I love as well. And that makes my witchy heart very happy.
Now, these are not ideas that everyone understands. Frankly, you don’t need to understand them. My practice is ultimately just that. My practice. It is ultimately for myself, my growth, and my happiness. As with my writing, the witch had to come out. She was begging to. Sharing this part of my identity was beyond necessary for so many reasons. But, mostly, it was to continue the journey of my heart’s happiness.
In the last week leading up to this blog launch, I have become increasingly confident in who I am, what I stand for, and what I practice. I have never been witchier either. And I have loved every minute of it.
It is no coincidence that I launched this blog on October 31st. Samhain (SOW-en), Halloween, or even Witches’ New Year, is a time of great transformation. The veil is at its thinnest between this world & the next. There is a sense of darkness, truth, and rebirth in the air. This sensation allows us to catch a glimpse of our truest selves. It is up to us (with the help of our chosen tools & support groups) to harness this energy around us & reveal our authentic selves.
This is me – my authentic self. This is the Wanderess Within.